Tuesday, June 23, 2009
New Delhi, a random day in the month of August, a few years back
Can you go back to the day when the life was going through the biggest change… yet it all used to make sense?
Can dreams be broken? Do they ever shatter, in pieces as fragile as the virgin snow? Do they melt away when you try to hold them on your fingers?
Do you ever know how the day is going to end when you leave home in the morning? Do you ever really know someone?
One word, one breath – one drop of rain can change everything.
It’s still too hot. I have never been a fan of Delhi’s extreme winter, but the summer is something I really hate.
If only it would rain. Right now.
But its here to stay. Few more months and then I will have the lesser of the two evils. Or will I? What is keeping me in this city? Did I find what I came searching for? Or did I lose whatever I already had?
If only god would give me one sign. If only he would tell me what to do. Oh! I am so tired, but the day has just begun.
If only it would rain today....
I stand and wait for the bus. The bus stop is almost deserted. Hummmm, its only 7:30 in the morning. Not everyone is too fond of starting the day so early. Oh yes, that guy is. We take the bus together every morning, but we never talk.
I don’t know him. Not at all.
But do we ever know someone? You may spend your whole life with a person, thinking that he was just an extension of your own soul, but after years, you find a side to him that makes him a complete stranger.
How long does it take to know a person?
Do you believe in the word “soulmate”? For god’s sake.. its not even a word.. My spell check so nicely marks it with a red worm...
What do you do when you find a lie, woven into the fabric of trust?
Do you try to pull it out? Do you try to rip it off? But then, can you make yourself do it?
Destroy something that means so much to you? Or do you ignore the obscene spot, and wear it, as if you haven’t even noticed it?
What hurts more – a lie, told to keep you in dark, or the truth that was hidden by the person who means the world to you, to keep you close, save you from pain?
Aahh, forget it.
About the guy? Oh well, he will get off at the same stop as mine and then he will smile. A smile that I never bother to return. It’s too much of an effort – smiling.
Why is he looking so disturbed today? May be it’s the heat.
It’s got to be the heat…
If only it would rain. Thundering crazy rain. That is ONE sign that God can give, without disclosing his address.
The bus is here....
....... to be concluded...
PS: I had posted it on my previous blog more than a year back. Wanted to share with people who never read that.. as the title suggests, its loaded with fiction and dreams.. About the story I started, will post the next part very soon.